In October 2016 I arrived at the Bimini court ordered and on my fourth rehab, of which I’d never stayed more then a couple weeks before going on the run. Bimini was my last and final chance with the courts before having to serve my time. I entered with the mindset that no matter how irritated and tedious I may find the program, I was gonna stay and complete this shit, and finally get the courts off my back. Although six months was all I needed for compliance I ended up being there nearly eleven. I not only completed rehab but I got clean and stayed clean for the first time unless I was in jail. I think rehab is what you make it and how much one truly desires it, as well as your sobriety. I had never wanted nor cared to be clean before as my life was never that bad considering whilst in my heroin addiction. I never relapsed cuz I just never stopped using. My man was/is a dope dealer, so I shared a bed with my connection. It was at the Bimini that I saw a different way of living that wasn’t that bad, living without drugs. As a heroin addict I was happy with my life, believe it or not, and was only there cuz of the courts. AA/ NA programs were asinine to me upon first familiaration with there way of recovery I knew that getting a sponsor, step work was not gonna be for me..yet by shutting up and listening, being open-minded I began to hear a little bit from many different sober outlets, meetings, speakers, rhetoric...I took what I needed left the rest.
